Ok, it has officially been one week since I have had any medications for depression, anxiety, panic or sleeping. It is going good.

I am still having brain zappy feelings that run through my entire body. However, there are also several other things that I have noticed...honestly, I am not sure if they are withdrawals or just things about myself that I never noticed until recently.

For one, my feet are sweating almost non-stop. It is November and I am wearing my flip-flops. Every time I put socks on or any close toed shoes it is almost unbearable. My feet have never sweat before without doing some sort of activity (cheer leading, rock climbing, ect). For some reason this development really worries me.

With hot sweaty feet comes cold clammy hands. I am not sure what this is about either. Also, my entire body feels sore. This might be because I have been sleeping more, but it feels like I have the flu. I have been popping my back since I was in high school and I have noticed since I stopped taking the meds that I pop easier and more. Perhaps I am more relaxed.

This is gross to mention, but I must....my bowels are more regular. I had my gallbladder removed about 12 years ago and had never been regular since. When I mean regular I would go a week without having any sort of movement. It got worse when I was on the anti-depressants. I never took anything for it because I didn't want to add another medication. But in the past week my bowels are moving daily. Honestly, I really like it. I truly believe my body is cleaning itself out. Before, when it had been a couple of days, my body just felt toxic. Now it doesn't. It is really strange.

My lips and face go through varies stages of feeling numb on and off all day. Like when you are getting buzzed from drinking too much, that is what it feels like.

My libido is insane. Every nerve ending in my body seems super sensitive and alive and is dying to be touched. I haven't felt this way sexually in years, I imagine it is somewhat how a teenage boy feels....if that is any indication.

I am sleeping better. For the first few days I had really bad nightmares. Fortunately I love to dream and it wasn't really an issue. The past night or two my dreams are back to being cryptically normal.

Everything I eat seems to taste the same although I am craving salty foods. I have been eating a lot of tater tots, chili and pizza lately.

I can drive safely. If I feel that my concentration is not what it should be I take an extra second and an extra look. So that is ok.

Originally I was thinking I wouldn't look for a new job for a couple of weeks, to see how this would pan out. However, I have noticed when I am busy and my mind is on something else the brain zaps aren't that bad. So I think that I should go back to work. Luckily I have a job interview tomorrow for a position that I think that I will really like and be really good at.

Wish me luck and I will keep you posted!!!! Tara